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From Chinese Footbinding.
New York: Bell Publishing Co., 1967, pp. 26-2 8. Courtesy of Howard S.
Levy and Walton Rawls.
Footbinding
I was inflicted
with the pain of footbinding when I was seven years old. I was an active
child who liked to jump about, but from then on my free and optimistic
nature vanished. . . . Binding started in the second lunar month; mother
consult ed references in order to select an auspicious day for it. I wept
and hid in a neighbor's home, but mother found me, scolded me, and dragged
me home. She shut the bedroom door, boiled water, and from a box withdrew
binding, shoes, knife, needle, and thread. I begged for a one-day postponement,
but mother refused: "Today is a lucky day," she said. "If
bound today, your feet will never hurt; if bound tomorrow, they will."
She washed and placed alum on my feet and cut the toenails. She then bent
my toes toward the [sole] with a binding cloth ten feet long and two inches
wide, doing the right foot first and then the left. She finished binding
and ordered me to walk, but when I did the pain proved unbearable.
That night, mother wouldn't let me remove the shoes. My feet felt on fire
and I couldn't sleep; mother struck me for crying. On the following days,
I tried to hide but was forced to walk on my feet. Mother hit me on my
hands and feet for resisting. Beatings and curses were my lot for covertly
loosening the wrappings. The feet were washed and rebound after three
or four days, with alum added. After several months, all toes but the
big one were pressed against the inner surface. Whenever I ate fish or
freshly killed meat, my feet would swell, and the pus would drip. Mother
criticized me for placing pressure on the heel in walking, saying that
my feet would never assume a pretty shape. Mother would remove the bindings
and wipe the blood and pus which dripped from my feet. She told me that
only with removal of the flesh could my feet become slender. If I mistakenly
punctured a sore, the blood gushed like a stream.
My somewhat fleshy big toes were bound with small pieces of cloth and
forced upwards, to assume a new moon shape.
Every two weeks, I changed to new shoes. Each new pair was one- to two-tenths
of an inch smaller than the previous one. The shoes were unyielding, and
it took pressure to get into them. Though I wanted to sit passively by
the k'ang, Mother forced me to move around. After changing more than ten
pairs of shoes, my feet were reduced to a little over four inches. I had
been binding for a month when my younger sister started; when no one was
around, we would weep together. In summer, my feet smelled offensively
because of pus and blood; in winter, my feet felt cold because of lack
of circulation and hurt if they got too near the k'ang and were struck
by warm air currents. Four of the toes were curled in like so many dead
caterpillars; no outsider would ever have believed that they belonged
to a human being. It took two years to achieve the three-inch model. My
toenails pressed against the flesh like thin paper. The heavily creased
[sole] couldn't be scratched when it itched or soothed when it ached.
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